y applied 4 shipwrecked

lol this is guna sound wel depressin! my life 8nt xactly bin gr8! Afta bein bullied in skool 4 bein wiv a 'popular' guy,i sumhow passed my xams,but didnt get 2 celebrate cuz my step-dad died in a freak motor bike accident jus 2weeks b4 getin my results.I lost my nana 2 heart disease wen i wuz 7 + callin an ambulance wivout freakin out @ that age,isnt easy.My grandad died 2 cancer in '99 so millennium wuznt celebrated.@ 17 i wuz raped by a so called frend + only person i told @ the time wuz his mum..my mum only found out last year!Afta that,i jus turned 2 drink big time,i attacked my mum everytime she tried 2 help,ive lost my sister cuz i wudnt let her help me + shes banned me from seein her 3 kids,who i miss loads!!ive lost frends 4 the same reasons.Last feb i tried 2 kill myself cuz id had enuff of hurtin people,that was the biggest mistake ive eva made + thanx 2 my boyfriend ive managed 2 stay off the drink (its only bin 2months but goin ok).Gettin on2 shipwrecked wud help me so much,workin as a team + makin new frends wud b awesum, but showin my family i can change 4 the beta + actually becum sumthin wud be a gr8 acheivement,i wana make my family proud,instead of bein seen as a failiure!

What I'd like to change about myself

my cofidence, i dont have any!

Naughtiest thing I've ever done

hitting a police officer wen i was drunk @ the mardi gras 2006 :( was thrown into a cell 4 the nite + the coppers sed i was like nikkioff BB cuz i didnt stop screamin haha :O thrown furniture at my boyfriend when i was drunk :O

Scared of

was scared wen had my tattoo dun..but en fell asleep lol! wen i had me tongue pierced,cuz it didnt go numb :( sheep + cows! spiders rejection

hobbies/happiest when

making new friends with my boyfriend with my family helpin diff charities doodlin modellin

Favourites

music: rock!! chris cornell is my idol! movie: any horrors or comedies magazine: kerrang! actor: ryan reynolds cuz hes fit + funny item:my camera luv takin sneaky pics of people wen least xpect it :) colour: brown 4 clothes, pink 4 everyfin else

Hometown

abergavenny, south wales, uk

Occupation

a professional bum, but startin work on 8th oct

Relationship status

have a boyfriend

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